Wednesday, August 26, 2015

My generation sucks!

I am sad. Not sad at my life because my life is wonderful. I married my best friend and have a healthy lovely daughter. I am sad but sad at the change in my life. The shift in worlds. Where I used to have friends all around now find myself alone and feel outcast by others. Now the blame for my sadness isn't a certain person, it's more of overall blame. Nobody I know is a terrible person, I just feel their lack of effort disturbing. The reason for my feelings are the lack of trust the exists between my generation. I know that it has already been said by others but people now days don't commit to anything. Including me. I am terrified that I will miss out on cool stuff and want to be hanging with the friend that will give me the most enjoyable time. In this case I have no friends anymore. Since I have been married they have all disappeared. I understand that their life moves on but ties that bound us as friends have disappeared. I have tried to keep in contact and there comes a point where you just give up and say "to hell with you"! I'm tired of trying. Tired of believe false pretenses. Tired and angry. But most angry because what I believe to be special and important has been thrown away like trash and that is why I am so upset. Upset that I am not important enough to be kept. Tired of being let down. Tired of not being used because it's "too hard" to send a text or a short phone call. 

That's it all I have to say